Book Closed: Almost Love With A King

We’ve met again…and it’s our first time we’ve gotten near with each other, heard each other’s voices, seen each other closely, smiled with each other, and looked in each other’s eyes. It was just an ordinary night, with his colleagues, talking about my business shits.


He must be God-sent that night because he didn’t know that I was going through some very traumatic issues caused by some assholes. And yeah, that night…I never thought he will continuously keeps me happy.


We’ve met again, the second time. He waited for me for an hour at Mc Donald’s Q. Ave. He doesn’t give me any thought of where we are heading that time but while he was driving, I am silently loving the way he sings. And that night, I got to know the man who undoubtedly creating a smile in my heart.


On August 13, 2010, on our third night of seeing each other, he surprised me. He asked me out for the Boys II Men concert. Though its very tiring to walk long, the way he cares for me when we’re passing the street worth it all. He’s the first man who asked me out to watch a concert. And after the event, I got a feeling that I still want to be with that man. An unexplainable feeling…an unexplainable happiness. We’ve gone to a bar in Timog. We’ve shared talks and differences. I will never forget when he said, “ Alam mo isa lang naman yung kinaiinisan ko sayo…parang bawat araw na magkikita tayo, lalo ka’ng gumaganda.”


That’s the first time he was able to hold my hands. We headed after to Novaliches to meet some friends of mine. While he was driving, I kept on denying to myself that I’m falling inlove to a man who is making me feel the happiness I’ve never felt before. Yes, the happiness that I’ve never felt before. And YES, I LOVE HIM.


I LOVE HIM and I’m afraid to lose him suddenly.

I have learned to love him more every time we meet.

I never got tired of kissing and hug him.

I love the way he insists to hold my sweaty hands.


I love to hear him singing when we’re with each other.


I love to hear him call me “babe”


I love smiling when he calls me “chubby cheeks”,”sexy”, and “hot”


I love the way looked at me.


I love the way he stares to my eyes.


I love the happiness I’m feeling when I’m with him.

I love the surprises.

I love kung gaano sya katakaw :)


I love the mwah’s and hug’s in his messages.


I love all my “first times” with him.


I love him… I just love the way he is.


I love KING TALAVERA. He was really a God-sent to me.


It’s been four weeks since we’ve left each other’s arms and he has taken with him half of my heart. It was hard for me to move on because he was the only man whom I’ve given all my love.


I never really thought that he’ll be just like the other men I’ve met. They lose ways of keeping me.


Days without him were miserable. I’ve long seeing him. I’m going through everyday of wanting and missing him. I still hope for him…I still love him. But, seeing him on the night of September 10, 2010…happy with someone else's arms was enough for me to finally decide to move on…to forget him now…and to accept that what we wonderfully had were now part of a happy memory. It's hard to be happy though...And I kept on thinking and murmuring "sana ako yung kasama nya ngayon...sana ako na lang, and sana ako na lang uli."


It’s my first time to cry since we’ve separated and this is enough…I have to move on and be happy now…


I know time will come that you’ll get to read this and I know when that time comes; I’m completely over with you, my king. And I know we’ll cross our paths again…I’ll be better that time and I know you'll be, too.


I’ll be over you but I will never forget the happiness and the love you gave me, King Talavera. Salamat! :)

He's Just Not That Into You: The No-Excuses Truth to Understanding Guys

A couple of months ago, I have watched the movie "He's Just Not That Into You". I laughed and reminisced "that happened to me" moments for a great hour and a half. And because it captivates me and I want to indulged myself in that movie again, I've bought it's book, written by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo, on August 14, 2010 and I finished reading the 187-pages  just tonight and a minute before I start to write this blog :)

He's Just Not That Into You helps woman, of my age, who is hopelessly romantic or better yet say UNLUCKY IN LOVE, to understand guys and stop cursing them later on, after the failed relationship. Apparently, I lied,  because this story is for all women of all ages who think that guys are COMPLICATED---Although they'd like you to think they are. And there are no mix messages...The TRUTH is may be he's just not that into you.

 So here's some of the quotes or memorable lines, that I want to share with you, and just like me...I bet, after reading all of these, you'll tell to yourself, too " THAT HAPPENED TO ME" :) Enjoy!

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1. “A girl will never forget the first boy she ever likes.”
2. “We are all programmed to believe that if a guy acts like a total jerk that means he likes you.”
3. “How stupid is that a girl has to wait for a guy’s call anyway, right?”
4. “if a guy treats you like he doesn’t give a shit’s because he doesn’t give a shit.”
5. "An excuse is a polite rejection. Men are not afraid of “ruining the friendship.”
6. "Don’t get tricked into asking him out. If he likes you, he’ll do the asking."
7. "If you can find him, then he can find you. If he wants to find you, he will."
8. "Hey, let’s meet at so-and-so’s party/any bar/friend’s house” is not a date.
9. "Men don’t forget how much they like you. So put down the phone."
10. "You are good enough to be asked out."
11. “I just need you to stop being nice to me unless you gonna marry me.”
12. “- Maybe he lost my number or is out of town or got hit by a cab.- Or maybe he is not interested in seeing you again?”
13. “What if you meet the love of your life? Are you suppose to let that pass you by?”
14.  " Men, for the most part, like to pursue women. We (men) like not knowing if we can catch you. We feel rewarded when we do. "
15. "Don't let the "honeys" and the "babys" fool you. His sweet nothings are exactly that. They are much easier to say than "I'm just not that into you." Remember, actions speak louder than, "There's no cell reception where I am right now." "
16. "Beware of the word "friend". It can often be used by men or the women that love them to excuse the most unfriendly behavior. Personally, when I'm picking friends, I like the ones who don't make me cry myself to sleep. "

17. "I don't want to be "sort of dating" someone. I don't want to be "kinda hanging out" with someone. I don't want to spend a lot of energy suppressing my feelings so I appear uninvolved. I want to be involved. I want to be sleeping with someone I know I'll see again because they've already demonstarted to me that they're trustworthy and honorable -- and into me. "
18. "You can't blame a guy for having feelings. You love someone, you break up, you still have feeling. Thank God for that really. But having feelings don't mean you have to have sex. "
19. " Every man you have ever dated who has said he doesn't want to get married or doesn't believe in marriage, or has "issues" with marriage, will ... rest assured ... someday be married. It just will never be with you. "
20. " Everyone wants to be loved and needed, particularly by the person who just broke up with us. I understand. What could be better than hearing from the man who just told you he didn't want you in his life anymore ... his sad, wistful, "I miss you so much" voice on the other end of the phone? It's validating. It's exciting. It's irresistible. But resist you must. "
21. " My friends all say I should stop talking to him, but I think he misses me, and I like that. I miss him. I feel if I stay in touch with him, it will remind him of how great I am, and eventually he will realize that we should be together again."
22. "A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. If he's not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he's showing up at your new residence to do it in person ... if he's not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately he's just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it's like to live without you. "
23. " Don't be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You're deeply missable. However, he's still the same person who just broke up with you. Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing, every day, not to be with you. "
24. "I was seeing a guy for about a month. He broke up with me, saying that he didn't feel like it could be something serious. I understood and took it well. He wanted to know if we could still hang out as friends. I said sure. Now we get together and go out and then come back to his place and have sex, just like we did before. (But now, we're "broken up.") He's really, really cute and I love having sex with him. I also think he must like me if he can't stop being around me. And I think it's kinda cool -- all pressure's off and we're having a great time together. I've decided that I think it's fine and I'm not going to call his attention for the fact that we're actually dating. Except for the fact that we broke up. "
25. "This guy is brilliant. He goes out with you, dates you, breaks up with you, then continues to sleep with you, which basically absolves him of all responsibility toward your feelings. After all, you're not going out anymore. It's genius! It's diabolical! He should be writing a book! In fact, I bet this guy could get his own little cult going if he wanted to. And let me guess, you'd be happy to sign up for that as well. For the record, this guy doesn't "like you so much that he can't stop being around you." Because here's what guys don't do if they can't live without you: they don't break up with you. This guy is seriously not into you, it's crazy. The only way you're going to figure out how into you you are ... is how fast you get rid of him. "
26. " Don't underestimate the power of sex, even with someone you've been doing it with for a very long time. Especially with someone you've been doing it with for a very long time. Breaking up means not seeing them again, which also implies not seeing them naked again. It might be tempting to forget this pearl of wisdom, but just remember, it's still called breakup sex. No one has yet to rename it oh-my-god-the-sex-was-so-good-we-got-back-together-again-and-lived-happily-ever-after sex. "
27. " He's sniffing for something better, and when he doesn't find it, he gets lonely and comes "home." It's not that he's so into you. It's that he's so not into being alone. Don't give him the chance to break up with you for the fourth time. (Even the idea of it sounds beneath you, doesn't it?) Reset your breakup maximum to one and move on."
28. "Deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated and difficult decision. Just remember that the person you are getting back together with is the same person who, not long before, looked you in your beautiful face, took full stock of you and all your qualities, and told you that he was no longer in need of your company. "
29. "Don't confuse being classy with being a doormat. Classy is walking away with your head held high, graciously, and with all dignity. Being a doormat is offering to drive him to the dentist for his root canal. "
30. " Breakups, I've heard, are supposed to be just that. Breaks. Hard, clean breaks. No talking, no seeing, no touching ... keep your hands to yourself. The relationship is over. Half the people I know move after a huge breakup, and frankly that makes perfect sense to me. You're not supposed to sleep with the guy who just broke your heart a week ago. Fine. Next time I'm in this situation I'll cry. Stay in bed and wail. Go to the gym if I can. Call all my friends and burden them with my misery. Sleep too much. Cry some more. See my therapist more often. Get a puppy. Do whatever I have to so eventually I can move on. "
31. " Breakup sex still means you're broken up. "
32. " Cut him off. Let him miss you. "
33. " Don't give him the chance to reject you again. "
34. "No matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and therefore actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing. "
35. "Being lonely ... being alone ... for many people ... sucks. I get it, I get it, I get it. But still I have to say that yes, my belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn't honor the person you are is worse. "
36. "Life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with."
37. "You deserve to be with someone who is nice to you all the time. "

 Did it happen to you?